woo! (:

2007-12-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

tralalala!
last few days were amazing! (: got to meet up with all the people i haven't seen in ages and missed like crazy! sexylucas and superD. omg like so super happy! (: (: sexylucas didnt get to meet everyone, but at least i got to see some of you! love you all! superD my niang jia! (: so happy that so many of us managed to make it for dinner that day, although i left early and didnt get to spend alot of time with you all, it was awesome to be able to see all of you again. love you guys to bits! (:

went to catch alvin and the chipmunks with jcea, omg total must watch! the chipmunks are too cute to be described! i like the fat one that has nightmares. theodore i think? he's the cutest! (:

jc cluster's working on this booklets for the freshies coming in, i just read the emails that the jcea's sent, my goodness, i totally burst out laughing at some of the comments and statements that some of them made. sorry i didnt have time send my comments in, but i think you guys really did a fantabulous job! i really know that our booklet's gonna be awesome woresome! haha phoebe's lingo. and today's ultimate frisbee was lotsa fun! (: oh oh happy birthday matthias! hope you had an awesome birthday! (:

like omg im totally supposed to be studying and not supposed to be here but hoho! (: yupedeedoos. econs time! market failure. woo.

song in my head: To know your name.
i love. (: cos you gave. (:

2007-12-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

happy birthday Jesus! (:
christmas is over just like that. i dont really remember how it passed, but it just did! and my year 2007 is going to be over soon. -sniff- but i sure am looking forward to next year cos my Daddy said it's gonna be good and i believe it. (:

2007 was indeed an awesome year, but it sure went by real quickly. to all the people who made my year, i love you guys! (: i wanted to list out but nehh im feeling lazy so lala!

anyhow, Ad camp was a blast. siong no doubt, but i really enjoyed myself. (: i love jc cluster, really like what coach said, we've grown up so much as a cluster! what really warmed my heart was what coach shared about the weather. Daddy really loves us oh so much. (: when it was raining so heavily everywhere else, all the campsite got was a few drizzles here and there. i really cannot say how loved we are. (: it's just so amazing.

looking back, there's really so much to be thankful for, words fail me. but i know this year i've learnt so much and definitely grown up as a person, the memories created the past year i'll always carry with me. (:

i've run out of words to express myself.

see the invisible, accomplish the impossible. (:
know you're always dearly loved, beloved. (:

2007-12-16T02:23:00.000+08:00

sudden urge to blog again. hello country! (:
just read cherissa's blog and omg cherissa, i do not float. (: anyway, i finished season one of heroes! (:
-applause for me!-
i somehow think peter petrelli looks like one of the guys in prison break. but im not sure. the psychotic one maybe?
haha now i need nice people to lend me the whole of season two. (:
i just finished cycle nine of antm as well and yay i guessed the correct winner! (: hoho no spoilers this time! (: much better than cycle eight i'd have to say. love it. (:
christmas! (: just did up my list. (: im so glad i managed to rush back to attend a little last part of service today, sure did enjoy myself so much. (: yay tuesday! (: it's so much different when i have so so many exciting things to look forward to, at least my mind is not a piece of blank. oohlala i love this few coming weeks. (:

christmas. (: He made it happen. the meaning for my christmas. no it's not just an empty quote. i mean it. from down inside. (:

2007-12-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

woo.
i just tripped over the mop. (:
this is what happens when you live in a cluttered home.
im totally not supposed to be here now, but i feel it deserves a little of my attention.
oh yeah. i did not perm my hair. it's what it is because that's what was supposed to be. sure i do feel a little self conscious but since Daddy chose me for curly locks, so be it. (: natural is beautiful. take it and love it. rebonding my hair last time? acceptance i guess. but i realised i just need to know He accepts me for who i am. (: yay love you Daddy.

learn to be tactful with your words. not everything that comes out of your mind should come out of your mouth. (:

okay i should go away. (: goodbye for a while.

2007-12-10T01:38:00.000+08:00

a gazillion years later!
hello world (:
this blog deserves a little life. okay i dont actually know where to start, just that many things have been happening im not quite able to keep up. but that's okay.
okay lets start with sherwin.
haha yes girl, you're seventeen! one of the craziest, funnest things i've ever done for someone on her birthday. fun fun fun. (: yay.
jceastA. the most awesome people i've probably ever met. i cannot say how blessed i am to have know every single one of you, the people who accept me for just who i am and i really appreciate that.(: cant wait for cluster christmas party! (:
Christmas is coming the goose is getting fat! caroling tmr, just hope i'll really enjoy myself. christmas is coming and im excited. (: i really want this to be an unforgettable christmas, i dont know how, but i just know it's gonna be great. (:
Love's come down. (: He gave me hope for my tomorrows. (:

Heroes. such an amazing show everybody should watch it. the jap guy's my favourite so far. with those nerdy specs, he looks blur-ly cute haha.esp the way he spasms everytime he concentrates. watched 10 episodes last night at one shot im a bit conked now. (:
yay videos are done converting, time for bed. sweet dreams! (:

"christmas isn't christmas, till it happens in your heart"
(:

2007-11-16T12:39:00.000+08:00

it's been quite a while!
been going down to ang mo kio super often, it's probably becoming my fourth home now. going down again later. yay im excited excited. (: past week has been hectic but amazing. lots of things to look forward to and i like having things to look forward to. (: beats sitting at home and lazing around.

tonnes of things happpening and i dont know how to go about thinking it. i think i think too much.
think simple. (:

why are rockstars called rockstars? see, a rock is a non-living object and so is a star. so does that make rockstars non-living too? hmm.

when you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are.
anything your heart desires, will come to you.
if your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme.
when you wish upon a star, your dreams come true.

sometimes, the answers to the most difficult questions are found in the simplest things (:

2007-11-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

game plan! "never say no"
total must watch. (: okay this is not supposed to be an advertisment.

anyhow. eventful weekend/tuesday. sleepover at yinling's. midnight movie. mini food trail at ang mo kio.(yeah amk. the other end of the world). pepperlunch. pratahouse. pool.

woo. funness (:
and more to come. i love post-exams/post-pw.
yeah i know, but Rpapers can wait.
stardust tmr! (:

have you ever though of how like everything can be so sure yet so unsure?
how it all seems so clear yet so bleak?
glad i found my answers. (:
forget about rainy days.
it amazes me how the world is so small. maybe just my world. but that's not important.
prancing around like a pig. if pigs could prance. sheep would fly.

and when the world is falling out from under me, i'll be found in you, still standing. (:
you accepted me, just for who i am. not what im supposed to be (:

afk.

2007-10-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

topic sentence.
iMacs, i love. (:
black. red. very pain. but i dont care. i never had so much fun in ages. i love my girls.
to drop or not to drop that's the question.
and i finally watched HSM2 after ten thousand donkey years. heehaw.
we're drifting apart and i didnt realised it. not till now. sorry i've not been good. somehow it just doesnt click. and i dont exactly know what to do.
i'd be lying if i said im okay. but i'll be fine, you'll see. You promised it'll be alright. and im counting on it.
period.

2007-10-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

totally random.
just a few random thoughts at the back of my head.

ice cream rocks. love it's inventor.
false surprises are devastating.
laptops are heavy. mine is at least. nice people do exist.
the bell's ringing really loudly. someone's prolly stuck in the lift.
someone please go save him.
she should go to bed.
what day is it today.
what happened to lack of trust.
figuratives.
connotations.
gestures.
oh goodnight. this is not supposed to make any sense. (:

2007-10-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO. (:
whole week of being lesson-less. yada yada.
anyhows. before promos, 07a14, we won the geog quiz! with minimal geog knowledge and sara's gambling skills. anyway here's the 'shield' we won.

yay we rock (:

previous week. monday isabel's birthday. tuesday sexylucas dinner. wednesday sleepover. thursday choir/shopping with cherissa. friday steamboat with muggers. saturday arrow(: sunday sleep in/service.

belle mel me ween bimbo (:

muggers. whatever we were doing.

say the exams are over. hello. shakes head. dont know how. dont know why. just thank you, for being so faithful. (:
fellowship the last two days with jcea was awesome. (: when everyone started to share, it really was so heartwarming. (: like what anna said. we are all going through so many different things, but what brings us all together is our Abba Daddy. (: so blessed by this bunch of amazing people who are so real and so different. (:

alright it's late and school starts tmr. sweet dreams. (:

2007-10-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

happy children's day! (:

happy 15th birthday my dear girl.
you have no idea how much i love you.

look how much we've grown. (:
thanks for being a bundle of joy, thanks for contributing the most noise to this home, thanks for all the talk nonsense times before bedtime when mommy would scold us for making too much noise. thank you for being you. i wouldnt have anything less. (:

love you my dear sis. (: blessed birthday. all the bestest for your eoys.

2007-09-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

friday got crashed by yinling cherissa jiawei nicky dennis. haha. thanks for the movie date! love you guys. (:
it's been an awesome weekend by far, except a few harmless glitches here and there.
mugging too much has left us all ting tong. or maybe it's just me. i actually asked sherwin, where are we going to study today? (she totally jumped up at me and gave me the shocked-looking-sherwin-face.)
i cant believe i said that. ):
see. mugging is detrimental. it totally messed up my brain.

today was one of the most unproductive shopping sprees i ever had. okay maybe we just spent most of our time talking. i love you girlfriends. cant wait for sleepover. (:

it's high time i got down to practice my piano.
it's more than high time i finished reading great ex.
-yawn-

2007-09-28T00:26:00.001+08:00

OMG.
yeah yeah you know what im going to say. (: so i shall not elaborate any further. (:
rubbish facebook cannot sign up. bleh bleh. im like speaking in short sentences for some weird reason. anyway. hello! okay random.
i learnt a new game today! with much tolerance and guidance from the wonderful people of class. lets go play pool again someday! i had a little beginner's luck today so yay! (:
tmr. no school. no exams. nobody to date. intial plan. sleep in, run, swim/tan, self-shopping, caregroup. (: but then. cannot go swim. ): bleh bleh. nvm. swim shall wait till next week. so if anybody feels like crashing my schedule tmr. feel free! (: i'll make time for you.

right. so anyoldhow. exams were not exactly enjoyable or memorable so i shall not try to think about it. thank you, yes thanks, to all you who dropped me an encouraging message or two, thanks for all the hugs, all the love, all the notes, all the crash-courses, all the coffee, all the snacks, all the "forcing-me-to-study" and not forgeting our beloved thaipan. thaipan. the mundane repetitive fried food that made me appreciate home cooked food so much. especially that piping hot soup at home fresh from the pot. i am motivated to learn how to cook, maybe sometime in the near future which is not so very near. (:
thanks mommy for stocking up the frigde and the cupboards with food, thank you daddy for driving me home after late night muggings in school. (:

so totally looking forward to the sleepovers/moviemarathons/chilling/pigging out/shoppingsprees/tanning/nightcycling? woohooness! (: the joy of it all.
for once in my life, my study table is not in an unearthly state, so no spring cleaning to do! just a little sorting and arranging here and there. wallaa! (:

and. i havent had chocolate for the longest time. -hint hint!-

2007-09-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

...
been getting so little sleep of the late, forgot what it feels like to have a goodnight's sleep.
antm. (: the show that cannot be missed. put 13 girls together and you get a bunch of female dogs. any resemblance is purely coincidental.
studying is much more productive when you're isolated. and running on coffee.
love eom.
dont panic.
mary had a little lamb.

im rambling nonsensically as usual. (:
-hello-

2007-09-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

beautiful song.
i love. (:

Who am i - casting crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

-irresistable love (:

2007-09-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

hello again world. (:
when im supposed to be studying market failure. the reason im here is because of a certain retard, illustrated below on the left. haha.

haha anyways thank you darl for all the photos. (:

alright. photos that werent posted up anywhere, the randomest photos and such. pattaya, blading, national day, concerts and all.

sherwinteo: my photgraph supplier. (:
sometimes, memories do help cheer you up. (:

right right. knock me into reality.
somebody make me study.

2007-09-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

teachers' day 07. (:

no words to describe it. not becasue it was awesome, neither because it was bad. it was just. like that lor.

look look at all the pretty cupcakes boon baked the night before!! you'd get sugar rush just looking at it. (:

the three pink cupcakes. wenqi, i agree with you, jiawei does look like shrek! lol.

back in ahs!

4C'06. i love (:

the corridoors i walked along for the past year. major nostalgia.

classroom- my row!!! (:

our toilet trips! (aka make hair trips)

C is for cookie.

my brother bear. (:

154.8

alright. so much for teachers' day. holidays start like now! (it's mignight). yay i cant wait for next week, meeting/catching up with the people i love. (: oh and not forgeting study of course. bleaugh. haha.

till again. (:

2007-08-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

lost for words.
oversaturated brain.
awake on coffee.
confuzzled.

... i love you too.

2007-08-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello weekend! (:
the times when i get to sleep till the sun tickles my toes. (:

not exactly the most wonderful week, but it was rather eventful. i love ice cream cakes! (: and my extreme craving for chocolate is back. hoho. big hint! (: oh oh im more than halfway throught gatsby already! (: yay feeling accomplished although i still have chunks of hw undone. haha. easily satisfied. i should try to stop falling asleep on buses. today a nice uncle had to wake me up when the bus reached the interchange cos everyone was alighting and i was still sleeping. i woke up seeing this warm fatherly smile i thought i was dreaming. i felt so suagu i wanted to laugh at myself.

HEADLINES.
sara rahrahrah tan is coming back to singapore on monday!!!! that's a day from now!!! (: i miss her so much. class somehow seems weird without her running around and making tonnes of noise.

on a sidenote. happy 100th post! (: well, everyone's in a study mode now, so blessed studying you all out there. (:
-always loved-

2007-08-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

now how did i find my way here when im supposed to be doing pw? roar.

doing all the things that are irrelevant now. sometimes your brain just cant stop thinking. oh did i mention i hate to go to tampines mall? well i do now. every ten steps i take i see somebody familar, or that i actually know but refuse to acknowledge. im never going to tampines mall again unless i really need to. somehow the place scares me.

i found a new way to get home from school! actually shuwei told me few weeks ago but i didnt register that i should take the bus from the school side! whatever im saying. point is. i dont have to cross the lousy overhead bridge anymore! (: yes mel, now i can take 55 with you.

my brain needs a filter.

2007-08-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

tralala (:

awesome past 3days (: i just read sherwin and oliver's blogs. they like elaborated the whole event. need i say more? i totally love this bunch of people. the best national day yet. (:

CRC JTS. (:

at lixuan's place. woo. our jts totally rocked (: hahaha. quote from kenny. "crc rocks more than adhoc!" haha. sorry adhoc! you've just gotta admit. crc rocks. (:

baking round brownies (:

kenny's unglam moment. haha

CRC '06

how often do you see david running around with water bombs? lol.

wet and happy people (:

dinner! (: i love this photo. it's looks oh so classy!

four happy seniors. they were behaving like they've never seen candles in their life. i spent the whole night being amused by their reactions!

(: (:

candle-lit crc. yay i love crc (:

so overallish. jts was quite a success! (: just that we didnt exactly have time to eat the cake we bought, cos it was already midnight. anyway i was so tired i could hardly drag myself home.

today! choir felt weird without any yeartwos. i cannot get used to the fact they are actually not here. ): i guess im not someone who's easily adaptable to change. roar. anyway the best part of today was fellowshiping with cg at esplanade rooftop. love this bunch of people whose lives are a blessing to me. (:

okay i want to watch music and lyrics now!!! but it's like way past midnight and im supposed to be tired. oh and i concluded that these quizes dont actually work. i typed in my name twice and look at the two different results i got. okay i did actually laugh at the first one. haha.

alena --
[noun]:

A person who laughs at anything (even this entry)

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

alena --
[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

lalalablahblahblah. tata world! (sauce, sherwin. lol.)

-my portion is Him, and im more than blessed-

2007-08-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

hello world!
being overwhelmed by the profoundness of 'the great gatsby' (lit text) after reading one pathetic page, i decided to take a break (:

i probably have the most amusing sister on planet earth. she saw the title of my lit text and started singing, or rather, shouting at the top of her lungs: "i can give you gatsby!!! gatsby!!!" courtesy of the gatsby wax advertisment. and my mom joined her can! but she was singing: "i can give you get to me." which totally doesnt make sense. my mom is simply hilarious. look at what she said to me.
me: mummy, i just realised the initial of your name and daddy's make E.T.
mom: that's why we're so weird.
-.-"'
i love my mom. (:

any old hows. went blading today after school, fell down and bruised my wrist. it looked like i tried to commit suicide. sunday. went to the airport to send sara off to holland. photos!

with jolene yinling chialing and cherissa

acting emo

the art of folding your arms and crossing your leg (:

the gorgeous people of a14 (:

i miss sara, like alot. hurry up come back sarararara!

yay tml! yay friday! yay saturday! (: it's going to be a long and exciting weekend. (: im so looking forward to it (:

"reserving judgement is a matter of infinite hope" -the great gatsby

2007-07-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

yay. photos (:

random canvas shoes. we were supposed to be doing lit.

national library lift! (:

sleepover at weens. (:

mel was trying to laugh. haha.

sherwinteo i love you! (and the cookies!)

blading today! (:
woo! blading was fun! havent bladed since i fractured my wrist a year ago. talking to cher today i realised we have too many things in common already. haha except the fact that she speaks in falseto all the time and im not a bimbo. (: yay lets go blading again soon! (: i officially conquered GP essay. yay! (:

there's a huge mozzie flying around my room biting me. go away you! rahhh.
-everything to me, more than a story-

2007-07-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

woo! officially the most used word of the week? anyway.
sleepover at ween's was fun! (: too much to say a bit lazy. ween (fottt), i want photos! (:

college day. nothing much. met up with cg people to go down to suntec for arrow! (: and omt. i learnt a lesson. the random words of the child of Daddy avail so much. i was talking to jomaine on the bus, saying it would be quite interesting to sit on a bus that went the wrong route. and guess what. in less than like 5min of saying that, the bus 36, instead of turning into suntec tower4, went straight into the highway! arhhhh! and we were all kancheong spiders cos we were already late for service.

arrow service was awesome! (: and i bought my mad tee! (: yay! so exciting! haha.

right. it's 12midnight. i promised myself to sleep before 12 today. woo. (:
-because you love me-

2007-07-26T15:36:00.000+08:00

random thoughts off the top of my head.

-i am not an airhead.
-drinking coke decreases your stamina
-i love sweet mangoes
-craving for spicy beef fries from carls jr
-big girls dont cry.
-im not a big girl.
-it's a half day tml
-i can make yusof ishak smile on the dollar bill (:
-i can make him frown ):
-i'd love a chocolate anytime
-i want to go to the beach
-i miss rooming with bimsoh
-i still do miss pattaya so much.

maybe it's not so random afterall.
-there is no fear in love; His love-

2007-07-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

tralala! yesterday was uncle robin's wedding (: woo. i woke up at 5am. congratulate me. i dont even wake up this early to go school! haha anyway. taking photos were fun! alrighty. lazy to type more. photos! (:

four of us to go pick the bride! (: i love this photo (:

while waiting for the bride to get ready

tadahh!

classic wedding photo

at bishan park. we were obviously entertaining ourselves. just look at tivona. lol.

nigel's just so cute (:

tea ceremony

camwhoring in the car

caleb. doesnt he look like me? (:

conclusion of the day. this is ivana. and she is such a vain pot. she totally deleted so many nice photos off my camera cos she claimed she looked bad in the photos. nyehh nyehh. i roll my eyes at you. haha.

yay i finally got my "destined to reign" book today! thank you christine darling for collecting and wrapping my book up for me! i love you babe! yay im so looking forward to read the book. (: im so glad i went for service today. it's so awesomely refreshing. (: i just cannot describe how im feeling now. lost for words (:

lalala. it's going to be the start of a new week and for some weird reason, im looking forward to it. (:

-what would i be without you in my life?-

2007-07-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

happy racial harmony day! lala. today wasnt how i imagined it to be. so exhausted, nuahh and all. not exactly my best day today. anyway, my two favourite photos from pattaya and today's photos. (:

love pattaya beach (:

for some reason, we look like we're in heaven. haha.

yay pretty costumes (:

tml would be one exciting day. uncle's wedding ceremony and dinner! waking up uber early to go fetch the bride! (: so exciting. i hope we do get to take many many photos tml! (:

yawn. i love chocolates (: it never fails to make me happy! (: currently craving for ice cream! (: woo im sleepy. and it's days like this that i wonder why i simply love being a girl.

it takes people who are secure to be humble.
-standing on favoured ground-

2007-07-17T17:00:00.000+08:00

woo just came home from piano lesson. i've not reached home so uber early in ages, home in the "light" sure does look kinda different, haha what am i talking. anyway i just realised that im so out of touch with the piano im starting to get irritated with myself. ms chian was being extra nice to me today yet i almost conked out while she was explaining to me the major minor key changes, the movements, blah. yawn. big yawn.

congratulate me on surviving school today! im so proud of myself. oh oh and i didnt get any grade U for my midyears! praise Jesus! He's awesome can. i told Him i didnt want any 'U's for myes. tadahh!! He's just so faithful i cannot help but love Him more. and and most imptantly i passed my econs!!! now at least my 'best friend' would quit picking on me during econs tutorials. (: although my results are not fantastic, and i actually failed GP, i know my Father is faithful. see, maintaining good results would be far more difficult than improving. so for me, there's lots of improvement that can be done. with my big Daddy, what is too difficult? (: im not affected by the results, cos they dont determine my future. my future is well and blessed cos He said so. like i always say, whatever i do in the future, so long as He is with me, it's 'confirm chop stamp' blessed. (:

im suffering from serious post-pattaya sickness! i miss that place to bits!! i was half wishing the plane would suffer from mental disorder or something then it wouldnt fly back to singapore. but i really did enjoy myself so much there. it was like a lalaland dream. and the people who totally made the trip so fun, namely may rhoda bimsoh ween mel yizha oliver kenny shixuan and enoch. all the 'tsunami', the cupnoodle party, camwhoring and such. thanks peeps, you guys made pattaya trip one i'll never forget. (: i went to school today feeling a bit lost and out of place. i lost quite a bit of appetite after i came back from pattaya. im not trying to lose weight or what, just didnt very much feel like eating. bleaugh. i need my beauty sleep.

anyway tml's some dinner to celebrate my uncle getting married i think, dad didnt really explain to me what it was all about. my uncle's wedding would be the second wedding i ever attended in my life! the first was when dad's friend got married about 10 years ago i think? haha so im kinda looking forward to it. (: i once told mom that i wished all my older cousins would hurry up get attatched and married cos i want to attend a wedding! (:

alrighty lighty mighty poetry! haha total randomness. tata! (:

2007-07-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Happy second day of july! (: and i thought today was youth day, until dawn told me otherwise yesterday. opps.
i LOVE post-exams!!! shopping shopping and more shopping. what can a girl do without shopping? alot actually. hmm im totally contradicting myself. whatever.
im feeling lazy. dont want school tml. barh.
yay! -jumps around-
im high and feeling restless (:

2007-06-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

(: yes sherwin darling, im updating. you're beautiful face will still be there though.
yesterday was awesome. too many things have been happening the past week, im so thankful my Daddy He's ever faithful. i dont know what i'll do without Him. yesterday was the bestest. just by going for my run and talking to Him, He showed me so many things that left me in awe. oh oh my Daddy has a great sense of humour can! haha. my Father's the coolest. (: and i am so ever thankful for anna, my dear sherpherdess, who has been speaking blessings into my life, she's the sweetest!

been studying with cherbimbo and ween the last few days and see what happens, haha.
we cam-whore like there's no tomorrow. ween! send me all the other photos asap alrights! (:

photos! (:

yaeee (: blessed studying, all my darlings out there! cheerios! (:

2007-06-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

CAM-WHORING(:

MY FAVOURITE (:

i love cam-whoring. especially with these two. (:

2007-05-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

my loves (:

it's so sweet to be able to catch up with them again. (:
right. hols are here. i really dont know what to say. i just know that my Daddy has plans to prosper me. hoho im so so excited. i think He's even more excited than me. (: i learnt many new truths these past few days and what can i say? im blessed out of my socks! im learning to count my blessings even in the smallest things, and it's all going to be good. i love the way Daddy showers love on me, He's no more that distant God that i cannot reach. He lives inside of me, He loves me and i know my Father. (: im excited to walk with Him every single day and i know He'll always be there for me. (: i know His heart for me. (:

jesus i am yours forever
close to your heart
held safe in your hands
im carried high upon your shoulders
nothing can take your love away
from me (:

2007-04-26T22:42:00.000+08:00

pinch me.
last few weeks were not the most fantastic ones, so many things going on at the same time.
oh yes and im proud to say! ahs choir. GOLD WITH HONOURS! (: im so proud of you guys. i dont care if other people say you all were just tyco. i love you all and im so so happy. (:

syfs, concerts and loads of performances have been flying around recently. i cant seem to get my days and dates right. um i just realised my library book's more than a week due. yucks. i feel like posting up loads and loads of photos again. cant wait for class blog to be up! (: loads of unglam photos to put up. i love 07A14. we totally rock. drawing silly drawings and writing pick up lines during lectures. haha. taking random photos of each other sleeping, eating and unglaming.

rights, im not supposed to be com-ing now. goodnight world. chocolate dreams.

2007-04-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

JCEA good friday party! (:

(:

thank you Daddy for sending this group of glorious people to me to be my blessing. i'd never exchange them for anything in the world. (:

2007-04-07T04:25:00.000+08:00

right. just photos. of all the things hapening the past few weeks, that make my life so much more enjoyable. (: i love you all.

janey's and my entertainment (:

janey's BEST FRIEND!

best friend's other friends

07A14 babes

chialing cherissa smelly!

small michelle (:

no hair

isabelle

isabelle xianhui jialing

ultraman

ween

3c05 (:

sexies (:

A is for alena! (:

rannie

darlings (:

yay i love photos. they make me happy. dont you? (:

2007-03-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

i love my pillow
i miss everyone im missing
i want my chocolates
i need to whine
make me stop thinking.
i dont want to know why
goodnight.

2007-02-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

im tired.
im missing so many many people! ): i need to find time to do some catching up. things are happening too fast. cny wasn't fun this year, dont really have the festive mood. thank God i found my reason for living. if not i'd have given up on myself a long time ago. it's almost impossible to survive without Abba Daddy. the emptiness and loneliness that no one can fill, He filled it up with love. (: my magnificent obsession.

2007-02-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

oleh! Daddy's beloved is back! (: (: did you miss me? haha. im starting to sound like michelle. taking a little break after having prata! courtesy of dad! (: dad is just the best. oh and i got my own com yesterday! no more 'fighting' for the com with my mom! yayness. (:

hmm two weeks just gone like that. february's here already! so fast. lessons in jc are not easy! takes Daddy to be able to survive there. i conk out almost every lecture. opps. last last friday met up with my dearest 4c for dinner! too bad i couldnt stay till too late. for some reason, mom's more 'picky?' about the time i get home nowsadays. i dont want to anger her. shall be a good girl go home early. anyway. so many of them changed alot alot! i miss them. at least i'll get to see them again this friday! (:

i miss my dearest superd too! it's been so long since i went for dare cos there's cg on dare weeks. but i really enjoy going for cg. i really learn so much from anna! (: really blessed to have such an awesome cgl. went for fourth with them on sunday, had an awesome time. it's always so sweet going back to listen and learn about the blessings i have and how much my Daddy He wants to love me. (: it just give me strength to carry on with my crazy week.

friday friday! im quite excited. not for results. not because i can appeal like what everyone says but more because i know the results can only be good because of His favour upon me! (: i'll always remember what dora once told me. the results dont determine my future, because my future is bright and secure in my Daddy. what mattered most is i enjoyed the studying process with Daddy and im so blessed with commando friends who kept encouraging me and speaking blessings into my life. (:

just rest, His hands are bigger. (:

2007-01-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

wo-ow. i realise thursdays are my only free days to use the com! last whole week was super hectic, though i really enjoyed myself. (: i didn't get to go campus on saturday ): cos i fell sick. but it really gave me time to spend with my brother and sister cos i hardly even spoke to them since school started. sunday's service was just wow. i got a chance to sit on the floor directly below pastor during service. im so blessed to be a youth in this time! (: all the exciting stuff are coming up for us youths and i know this year is just gonna be awesome. (: i got to spend some quality time with my darling amanda denise who i havent had a good talk with in such a long time! really enjoyed spending time with her just sharing about jc and stuff. (:

well last few days were kinda full with choir practices! they're fun! (: i really enjoyed myself. ohh pe days are just torture. for someone who hasnt ran since i cant remember when, oww. oh and the pe teachers are rather spastic. this one teacher keeps talking about hongfeihong and shisanyi. whoever they are. i kinda like the way tutorials are conducted. at least it keeps you involved you wont fall asleep. it helps alot when you're only allowed 6 hours of sleep every night. big yawn. the rest of my week's all packed up as usual. oh and i havent gone back to ahs since school started. oops. hey 4c darlings! why dont we just go back next friday since it's ahs cca day to visit then after that maybe we could go for dinner or something?? at least then we can find time and an excuse to meet up!!

2007-01-12T10:05:00.000+08:00

ooh! first post of 2007. welcome new year! (: the past 10 day were very very eventful. (: forgetting about the part where i fell sick. anyway. orientation was fun! i got really sweet ogls. they really looked out for me, esp when i fell sick. appreciated! (:

friday's bs was awesome! year of NEW BEGINNINGS! which cannot be true-er for me. this whole week has been a week full of blessings spending time with my Daddy. (: saturday's dare was nothing but awesome. (: i am really so thankful that dare is the place where i really grew up and learnt to rest in my jesus. in just one year and so many things have changed for me, definitely more gloriously. how i saw my family just growing more and more learning to rest in Him. (: how He faithfully saw me through prelims and Os. sunday service showed me His heart for me. my jesus really loves me so much. (:

the whole week of lectures and tutorials were rather new for me. some were quite boring but praise jesus i didn't fall asleep at all! yay. (: my timetable's rather slackish. lesson time combined together for the week is even shorter than secondary school's time! cca takes away almost half of my week but im really looking forward to the practices and performances! (: oh and i find my class simply amusing. A14's full of all kinds of people. well that's what makes school so much more interesting. and praise jesus for a nice CT. at least he doesn't look like the kind that throws tantrums easily. oh and our very sweet chair(wo)man. her dad gave justyne, michelle and me a ride to the bus stop cos it was raining so heavily today. (:

well my very eventful week's coming to an end! im so looking forward to campus this saturday! (:
oh yes yes. someone please organise some form of a 4c06 outing soon please? seems we're all missing each other pretty much. ):

till the next time!

2007-01-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

BLESSED NEW YEAR BELOVEDS! (: (:

all i can say is, God is good! (: (:

2006-12-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

hmm only when the internet's lagging do we learn to appreciate.

4 days to the end of the year! the cliches. new year resolutions. nope NO more new year resolutions for me! simply because i am the beloved. i am redeemed from all self-effort! lalala! (: looking back, this year has really been a great year of acceleration for me. (: and i know next year's gonna be even better with my jesus preparing the way for me. (:

christmas just passed two days ago and to me, it was quite a different christmas this year. first, i want to thank my darling familly for being so understanding cos i didn't spend my whole christmas with you all this year. coming to that, i really really appreciate everything that you all have done for me, esp during the last week. (: i am so blessed!
coming back, i was caroling at raffles hotel with vjchoir on christmas! and i really really enjoyed myself. it was loads of fun and i really miss it. right sherwin? haha you spastic person, you and your 'ang-moh' accent! i love caroling! (:

26 december! real special day! (: super d christmas party at ethel's place! (: (: ethel's house is real cool, too bad i didn't get a chance to see her room! ): anyway, the attendance was awesome! like almost 40 people were there! i was late because i was busy preparing the gifts and some stuff happened on the way for example the train "broke down" and all. but that doesn't matter. what mattered the most was my sis agreed to go for the party as well! you see, she's sec3 next year which makes her part of super d but she didn't go for ej camp cos of the choir trip. anyway. im so very glad she did go! she told me she really enjoyed hereslf yesterday. (: (: when we reached ethel's, super d was playing taboo! hahahahaha! no details here. cos it's rather obscene. later we played 'tresure hunt', courtesy of ethel! i found 4 pieces of paper all with ticks but gave them all away! later we found out those with crosses had to do forfeit! haha aloysius and kev did their special item! super funny! man i love super d. glorious bunch of people who never fail to make my day. (: super d really grew so much this year. not only in numbers but as a family too. we're the largest and most blessed dg in dare! (: seeing so many of us mature and start serving, being so blessed and having one blessing after another hunt us down i really cant bear to graduate because i really love this bunch of darlings so much. (: but i know as i move on and as super d grows closer together as a family i really see them being the most accelerated dg in dare! (: (: on one hand i cant bear to leave my first and most precious super d, on the other im really excited to receive all the blessings that await me in campus! i really thank daddy for placing people such as you guys in my life to be my blessing. (: basically the party had awesome food, awesome people and our awesome jesus! (:

exactly one week to school reopen. no holiday homework to rush out this year as i usually do, praise jesus! no more hill-ing for me next year, i'll be in a totally new environment with new faces. but i'll not be alone! my jesus He'll be there with me. He'll bring people into my life to bless me. He's ever so faithful. (: praise jesus there are already people i know going into the same school as i am so it won't feel that wierd. im definetely going to miss my dear 4c. i know that you all will be blessed going to your new schools and i wish you guys all the bestest! (:

wow. i wrote so much already. haha. my dad just started suaning me again, asking me to conquer a mountain. diao. my dad is super cartoon. because i keep saying that, he concluded that i should either be a 'cart' or a 'toon'. my dad and his wierd theories. i love him for that. (:

alrighty already! i've said so much. thank you if you've read my whole entire post. love you lotsa! (:

my God you are so big
you are so strong
and so mighty! (:

2006-12-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

lala welcome back to singapore again..
hk was cold. an eventful 5days in good and bad ways.
3 days to christmas! (: just received a christmas card from apple darling. (: thanks so much dear! you're so sweet.

so much happened i dont want to remember.

jac! miss you loads too.. hope to see you again real soon! (:

2006-12-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

hey beloveds! welcome back to singapore! (: yours truely is tired but so full and so so so blessed! (: i shall not share so much here, ask me personally if you want to know!

there is still so much on my mind but it's all different from what is was on sunday! like what pastor said, walk in from the north and exit from the south. although i dont feel much different on the outside, i know great things are going to happen for me because i know He loves me! (: i am my Father's BELOVED child! (:

to a blessed weekend! (:

"so what can i say
what can i do
but offer this heart O God
completely to You..."

2006-12-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

it's the 3rd day of december!
so many many many thoughts running around my head. im tired. i need to be earthed.. they just kind of hit me.. hard. ouch.
whatever it is, i dont want to be afraid.

countdown! 1day 7hrs 10min! (:

"my soul finds rest, in you my jesus.
my hiding place, amid the storm.
in pastures green, you lead me down to lie.
by waters still, i shall abide."

2006-11-30T05:51:00.000+08:00

the clouds are so so beautiful today! (:

my jesus he makes everything so beautiful today. whatever happened yesterday, will happen today and may happen in the future, i really dont care, beacause He is ever so faithful. with this i am able to live day by day, not worrying what may happen because He satisfies not only my needs but also my WANTS! (:
"the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not WANT..."
if my jesus feeds the birds of the sky that they do not labour to survive, how much more us?
he makes all things beautiful (:

i really dont know how to say how much He has blessed me, i am just ever so thankful (:
my blessings are uncountable! (:

just know, know how much He loves you, that's all that matters. really. (:

2006-11-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

in short, this weekend was nothing but AWESOME! (:

it's amazing how He places people at the right place and the right time to bless His beloveds! (:
although i had some unwanted visitors, he made everything beautiful just for me (: he made all the timings right for me (:

it's the start of a brand new week, im so looking forward to it! (:

"when the stars refuse to shine
and time is no more
you'll still be faithful
you'll still be faithful..."

2006-11-24T08:46:00.000+08:00

ooh!!! it's exactly a week since studies officially came to an end and this week has been nothing but awesome! it's been so so so much fun!(: and i've accomplised A LOT. muahahahaa. sense of achievement. there's still so much i wanna do!

second night of class chalet was fun fun! (ask jiahui) *giggles* the first time i ever saw someone flirt with himself in the mirror! i literally laughed myself off the bed. and i realise i can play snap! i DO NOT have slow reaction! muahaha! too bad a wasn't really feeling well so went home to sleep. aye im so lazy to blog the details. someone post up photos soon! (:

oohlala! YAY teaparty teaparty! (: (:
-decision making is difficult-

2006-11-19T21:18:00.000+08:00

thank you thank you Daddy so so much. words cannot express how good you are to me(: (: (:

im all smiles. well there's so much i wanna say, but not here. i figured i wouldn't want to share my life with the whole entire world, so i'll blog only when im horribly bored or in desperate need to make noise, which i think seldom happens now.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS DARLINGS! (: (:

-till i feel bored again! tata!-
-desperately joyful (:

2006-11-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness what can i say? it's november 16!

i can't believe it just ended. but i dont mind it one bit! NO MORE MUGGING FOR ME! at least for the next 2-3 months. (: i love the taste of freedom. anytime! *cheers!*

2006-11-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

conclusion: you breathe throught your nose. NOT your mouth. take it from someone who knows.

TGIF!!!

(thank God it's friday!)

2006-11-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

yayness! dad repaired his spare phone and it's now mine!! no more spoilt sound system for me!!(:

thank you daddy there're no papers tml!! phew. i can finally sleep well for one night.
*countdown.. 10 days!(: oh can't wait..*

-little crybaby-
monday blues..

2006-11-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

i want to go for a tea party!!! *wails*

-the dreaming princess-
(exactly two more weeks!!! :))

2006-11-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIRST DAY OF NOVEMBER!!(:

2006-10-26T05:20:00.000+08:00

hallucinating is bad. :(

2006-10-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

woohoo! to a blessed weekend. :) thank you Daddy for being so real in my life. DARE was totally awesome as it always is, and it never fails to lead me running back into my Father's loving arms. thank you Daddy that you listened to me, you heard my cry for help and you answered me. i am ever SO thankful! the past week was filled with disappointments, tears and sleepless nights. i thought you didnt hear me, i thought you didnt bother. you did bother.

due to some disgusting biology practical, that i'll only take once in my lifetime, i screwed it, i cried all the way home. i was so disgusted with myself, this was my very first paper and i made every single mistake you can think of. in one word, it was horrible. thank you daddy for every single encouragement you sent along the way, i place that paper in your big arms and im moving on. :)

thursday and friday night were horrible, sleepless nights. okay at least friday was better. thursday night, i went to bed at 12 am. i was so so so tired after chionging two amaths papers and i wanted to enter lalaland immediately. i tossed and turned, rolled and rolled until 130 am. for some reason, i couldnt sleep! friday night dad prayed for me i super long prayer until i fell asleep. yesterday after worship, deaconess karen said daddy wants those who have not been sleeping well to know you will have a good rest that night. i was so tempted to scream amen! praise jesus for his goodness. i slept like a log last night, it didnt take me more than 5min to fall asleep! my daddy is so good to me. He cares about even the smallest little thing! :)

i think im the slackest o level student, everyone should be mugging like crazy now and im blogging. i just know daddy he'll see me through. those results dont determine my future, my future is well secured in his BIG hands! i only have this few weeks and after that i cant do my fys/tys-es anymore! so why not treasure the time i have left with my beloved secondary school books?

to a blessed week of studying! jesus loves you!

2006-10-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

4c 4c forever!!! :)

i never dream i'd say this, but im going to miss you guys so so much!! my goodness. i havent had so much fun in weeks! with all that mugging.. i really enjoyed myself today. :) today's probably the last time we'll be together as a whole class in our classroom.. thank you for leaving wonderful memories for me. :) really looking forward to all the outings together!

till then, all the best for big Os guys! like caho counted, 3 weeks and 6 days left to the end! all the best everyone! :))

2006-10-18T08:09:00.000+08:00

hmm. i just read my ex-blog. i was so full of rubbish then! and i still am la actually. there's so much i want to say. so many things i want to tell so many people. i dont know where to start. maybe i never will..

today was.. bad.
sorry Daddy. sorry for questioning you and doubting that you are wanting to go through what im going through. thank you for showing me you care about all the nitty gritties of my life and that you love me more than anything.. i'd be lying if i say i didnt care if you were there, because you matter, your opinion of me is more impt than anyone elses. sorry for belittle-ing you. and thank you, for not holding any of my nonsence against me. thank you thank you dear Father for always holding my hand. dont let go..

i feel like crying. i feel so small. so tired..

2006-10-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i feel like eating bananas.

people are wierd. when you ask them what they are doing, or why they are doing something, you get the reply: NOTHING. how can you be doing nothing? it's just wrong..
nevermind.

i seriously miss choir LOADS. it's like something missing. and isabel's complaining choir's getting boring. well apparently her eoys are over so she everyday walk here walk there disturbing everyone else. well my 'freedom' date's in one month! actually im already free from this 'stressful' period everyone's going through. my jesus has conquered the Os. i am more than victorious! He has fought my battles. i fight FROM victory! :)

i just feel like making noise. lots and lots of noise...

blessed and rested week everyone! :)

2006-10-12T06:06:00.000+08:00

YAY! finally found a little free time to post up some photos that i was supposed to long time ago! superd babes sleepover photos! okay girls dont freak out. i'll only post up the glam ones aye? the rest... i'll burn a cd for you guys when i have time.. so let me know asap if you want the photos ya? =)

saturday september 23: lunch at newyork newyork! =)

look at the food! definitely six satisfied babes.

our room view!

while checking out the bathroom! haha.

while shopping... at some 'mirror' outside marina square.. guess who?? hee hee.

the culprit that stole amanda's and alene's voices away!
sweet popcorn anytime!! courtesy of ethel!

some snapshot char took on sunday morning!
she certainly has the basic photography skills!

alrighty! no more decent photos! hahahahaha! oh still have 4c seoul garden photos. aiya. another time can? haha sorry guys. oh oh oh oh oh!! i have something to announce! ive beat my own score! minesweeper record.. 9 seconds! muahahaha. yes yingen i know you did it in 1 sec..

today i kinda wasted half a day in school. literally doing nothing. why did i decide to go school today? anyway i met jess at the bus stop while going home and talked to her a little. oh yes. i just found out today that zheng laoshi actually stays in aquarius! i seriously think im highly lagging. she taught me for one year and only now i realise she stays in the same estate as me. goodness! i sorta freaked out.

i shall not go school tomorrow. school's a waste of time. lalala! back to my five-year series now.. ~~(i shall burn them all after Os! BAH)~~

2006-10-06T07:22:00.000+08:00

hum dee dee dum! apparently my tagboard's spoilt and every other blog i visited's tagboard's working. HMM. haha. thank you janey dear for the encouragement today! love you chunks dear.. i was feeling so drained today i had hardly any strength to walk home. thank you. the message was certainly timely. =)

my nose is still running, it has been since last weekend! actually it was a bad sorethroat first, the sorethroat left, praise jesus, and then the mucus took over. i can hardly breathe. clogged up nose. *coughs* my voice was so 'sexy' the last few days i wanted to laugh at myself. that day i was talking to my mummy and walking, talk talk walk walk then i banged the wall. OUCH. haha that was random. anyways, there's DARE this saturday! hurray hurray! arent you excited! =))) YAY YAY! haha pardon me for my high-ness. YAY!

i was thinking of things to do after o levels end. haha i've go some plans in my head already! i know it's not the right time to be thinking about these stuff now but im treating it as one of my motivations! haha.. well i shall blog about it soon! =) in the meantime.. continue resting in His love beloveds! =)

"my soul finds rest, in you my Jesus..
my hiding place, amid the storm.."

2006-10-05T07:22:00.000+08:00

it's been a whole week! ahahas my dad finally got the wireless fixed so im testing to see if it works! and shun bian add a post up huh, in other words, giving excuses to take a little break.. this whole week's been.. hmm eventful should i say? last week was a rather unhappy one praise jesus it's past. was talking to dora on sunday while waiting for my dad to pick me up from suntec. praise jesus for placing us at the right place at the right time. i was just klkk-ing at the rock bookshop looking around to pass the time when i saw lydia and dora. dont know how, i just started talking to dora and shared alot of things. i was really glad i was there talking to her. she was so so encouraging and reassuring. =) thank you! =) it made me do quite alot of thinking. and reasoning out, i realised the most impt thing. it doesnt matter how good or bad you do or how you can or cannot match up. Daddy is always here for you, no need to be afraid about being all alone. He is the most sure secure thing that ever happened to me. somehow when this truth always hits me, i cant help but thank Him for His love all over again. feelings are an inevitable part of us, but regardless of how i feel, He never stops loving me. =)

walking home today carrying a huge pile of books (thank you yingen for helping me carry half!) well had to clear lockers by friday so apple figured it would save me two days of 'agony' if i just carry the whole big stack home one shot. well and with that big pile of books in my arms, i started to think again. nostalgia i guess.. and lots of appreciation. seriously. start appreciating people around you NOW. no matter how irritating or pesky you think they are..we meet different people as we carry on with our journey in this life. i am so thankful for single everyone i know, thank you, for just leaving a segment of your life to bless portions of mine. no matter where we go or who we'll meet, im just so excited that you have made a difference in my life. i dont have the luxury of time to mention names, so to whoever actually cared to read till this part, you're definitely highly appreciated by yours truely! love you loads! =)
(ahahaa that's why i always say the best is at the end. =))

next few weeks are definitely going to be 'siong' weeks for me, do keep me in your prayers alrighty? i just know everything's gonna be alright. blessed remaining of the week! =)

"imagine me without you,
i'd be lost and so confused..
i wouldn't last a day, i'd be afraid,
without you there to see me through..."

2006-09-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

blah blah blah blah. i just visited jac's blog. and concluded that yingen is a long winded ~~human~~ star! =) it's already the middle of the week! that's really fast.

well well. my major hiatus is officially starting already. mugging time is here. lets just pray that i'd get moderation for a better grade and forget about the prelims. trying to predict my l1r5 doesnt make me feel any better. i'll just face reality on monday. i have absolutely no idea where i want to spend my first three months, and i dont want to think about it. it makes me more tired only.

alrighty every single mugger for o levels.. blessed time studying! =)

~~please please stop nagging already.~~

"thank you for always believing in me..."

2006-09-27T12:53:00.000+08:00

yayness. my com's still in a state of madness. cant upload photos, cant access msn. BAH. ive been stuck on minesweeper the whole night, trying to beat my own high score of 12 secs! it's super addictive.

oh! today in school i found out i had a mutated twin sister!!! hahaha! she's none other than JIAHUI!!! goodness me. this pokk had the same grades as me for almost all the papers we got back except english and chinese! we even did the exact same questions for geog paper 2! alwyn and elisha were so amused. haha jiahui do we have telephathy or what? or have i been eating too much pasta? hee.

anyways. lunched with caho yingen and jac at phin's today. i got to sit in the comfy chair! =) jac was craving for pasta, yingen and caho ordered pasta as well. well i had too much pasta over the past week i decided to go for fish and chips. turns out the fish and chips were nicer! =) yingen was literally dumping syrup into her ice lemon tea jac said she'd get diabetes! jac was taking spastic photos of caho playing with the lemon! haha oh wells. i was uber full, but still had itchy mouth for ice cream! jac owed yingen and caho sundaes for some bet they had, and i got a sundae as well! just because jac loves me! muahahahaha. she's so sweet. thanks dear! =) i was so bloated i wanted to puke.

well. so much for today. back to my minesweeper!

"ive had enough of crying, tearing and thinking.
i need you to carry me through. im tired..."

2006-09-26T12:31:00.000+08:00

just watched SI. ANTM's in half an hour! i kinda realised tanya chua looks like antm's jade. haha! when taufic came out and sang i dream, it suddenly brought me back to two years ago, during 2k04 class chalet. everyone was so high about that song we were blasting it during the chalet. how i miss those days. feeling nostalgic again.

anyway. today was quite a disaster. whatever it may be, i know tml's going to be better because my Daddy loves me! special thanks to ethel daniel and janey for being ever so enouraging. appreciated! =) thank you yingen darling for accompany-ing me to lunch today, teaching me that straw trick and blowing your CO2 down my drink! yes i know you are strong! haha. love you loads! =)

yes and i need to complain. some sec3 guys broke his leg, they used our classroom and now my class is stuck high up in the 4th level, among all the other sec3s! boohoo. so cos we were getting results back and all, teachers taking their own sweet time, we were the only class on that level making so much noise!! ohh but what could be worse than having to listen to our dear principal nag. hai. not exactly the best way to start and end school. alrighty enough catastrophes for today already..

blessed week ahead!

"how wide you open up your arms
when i need your love.. "

2006-09-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

OH NO.

may tomorrow never come. =(

2006-09-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

yay!!! i just have to blog about today! the perfect day to spend marking day!!!

yours truely woke up super late today, i slept like a pig. =) met shey darling at tampines and trained down to town to shop!!! before that, we were really hungry so decided to have early brunch. apparently, newyork newyork didnt seem to be open.. or rather there was nobody inside and we darent ask anyone if it was open, haha so the two hungrys went down to marina square to shop shop first! shey bought this pink bimbotic handphone pouch. suits her SO well. bimbo pouch for little bimbo. =) haha when we finally went to NEWYORK NEWYORK.. we had pasta!!! oh my gosh. the pasta's so much nicer than those at pasta mania!!! pasta mania no standard alr.. haha. then we had choco waffle. heavenly. too bad i forgot to take photos. =( anyway, during our lunch, the waiters kept walking to our table to look at the order receipt. haha, hard to explain, though they were amusingly annoying. when we walked in to sit.. the "my humps" song started playing!!! shey and i couldnt stop laughing!!! haha then the "yellow" song started playing too!! "...look at the stars.. they were all yellow..." haha silly no link song. then trained down to bugis to do more shopping!! haha long story about some uncle at zinc! and i never knew i had hidden talent for bargaining!!! hee hee.. sorry shey had to pang seh you so early.. thank you dear for the shopping!!!! really enjoyed myself.

trained down to bedok where i met janey!! okay so we were SUPPOSED to meet big cow and some others at mp library but apparently we were so late they left without us. hrmp. thank goodness janey was with me.. if not i'd take a million years find my way to east coast. =) well the turnout was rather good! alot of people went. well i really had fun perspiring myself out! i love the wind in my face, esp when you go so so so fast on the bike! oh man i missed that feeling so much. =) we gathered at bedok jetty, chit chatted and stuff.. daniel and janey were singing this funny korean song? haha. it sounded rather silly. i was starring at the little cute fishies in the water.. so tiny! haha. alene amanda char and ethel were doing turn arounds on their blades and brian did his signature FALL. *laughs*

well after that dont know what happened only left brian yongde jack ethel char and me walking to lagoon to meet the rest of them there. haha i really enjoyed talking to ethel and char!!! =) meanwhile brian jumped over the hedge and gave me a big shock. he can go shoot his own movie already. haha. after the longest walk, we finally reached lagoon. praise God!!! the walk felt so much shorter with everyone crapping and crapping. haha. crapping helps huh. well apparently everyone was so into stingray and stuff, only able ethel and i were at our table. it was really fun talking to them. =) well apparently i was so so full from lunch i couldnt really take dinner..

well it was really late when we left east coast and the few of us went to look for a bus stop. haha. the walk to the bus stop was damn funny i swear. ethel got kev and malcolm to help her carry her blades so they took one "shoe" each. *laughs!* ethel and i were going on and on about how they looked like a couple carrying one blade each malcolm almost smashed my face with the blade he was carrying! haha anyway we had to walk along this highway before reaching the bus stop kev kept trying to scare everyone. hrmp. i do NOT like to be freaked out so late at night. but his attempts turned out to be quite hilarious. we were just cracking lame jokes on the way back and i was so so thankful when the bus came. i was so tired, and i needed to bathe. took a bus back with claire and we were just talking.. really enjoyed talking to claire! =) yes then finally got home. never loved the shower so much before. haha.

a big fat congrats to everyone who survived reading my super long noise till here!!! give yourself one clap!! *claps* =) haha. thank you everyone for making my day! yesterday and today were simply awesome and im really excited about tml!! =) LOVE YOU ALL CHUNKS! =)

2006-09-22T13:24:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH. seriously. i cant tell you how happy i am to be able to access the internet. condition now: msn down, laptop down. praise jesus the com's internet's working!!!! i poke dont know how many million plugs already lah!!! i'd just cry if i cant use the internet today. who cares if it's lagging? PRELIMS ARE OVER!!! that give me a good enough reason to be using the com! i smell half-freedom. =) exactly 8weeks to actual freedom! NO SCHOOL TML!! shopping shopping! =)

today was one of the bests days of the month. =) whoohoo!! i just cant stop smiling. bought i big fat sunflower for jiahui"kor" cos it's her birthday tml!! happy early birthday girl! =) exam was rather rubbish. dearest mdm sim could not stop yakking away. oh how highly annoying. anyway who'd wanna bother? prelims are over!!! 4c met in the canteen, took a good 45 min or so to decide where to eat and who's going for lunch.. finally, we trained down to bugis!!!

um and on the train... we were frantically taking photos of each other! (sorry i cant upload any photos due to the laggness of my com.) when we finally got to bugis, i realised for the first time that there's actually a SEOUL GARDEN there! oops. lets see who went. yinzuo dj yeokseng ruixiang junyi yingen shey caho jackie pearl jiahui joyce yunzhi and me! the uncle asked how many people.. i did a quick headcount. 14.

yingen: 15 lah! junyi needs two seats.

LOL! we paid money returned change and stuff and went to get food!!! yingen was doing most of the cooking and chucking food onto my plate! i tried to cook the beef... after 2 mins of poking.. yingen flipped the beef over. it was BLACK. opps. i conclude that i cant poke beef. meanwhile.. jackie was self-amusing..

jackie bimbo: ooh!! look the fishball gets bigger when you cook it!
jackie bimbo: ooh! i can cut the tofu!

HAHAHAHA!!! who cant cut tofu!?!? she's super hilarious! jackie took a mountain of meat while shey took a hill of veggies. conclusion: jackie=carnivore, shey=herbivore. yingen was the best. she was dumping chicken meat into my ice-cream!!!

jiahui: whoa thank goodness im not sitting beside yingen!

hai. poor me. i never touched the ice cream after that. the guys, at the other table, were having fun with their um.. eggs. apparently they fried/steamed/baked/halfboiled/fullboiled/ate raw a few million EGGS. take your pick. i've never seen anyone eat so many eggs at one shot before! their food just looked completely inedible. eww. and i thought we were only allowed 3 eggs per week.

hmm the girls went to take neoprints after that while the guys stayed to wait for their sushi. their stomachs really can squeeze food lah. i was so bloated i couldn't take dinner. anyway. i left while they were designing the prints, trained down to tampines to meet alene janey and ethel for movie!! devil wears prada!!! alene kept stuffing me with chocos and popcorn! haha. and they bought greentea for me! thanks babes!! i was kinda late but praise Jesus i didnt really miss alot of the movie! =) the movie was glam!! i want all those clothes!

when we left the theatre we saw SHAVONNE!!! at the arcade with her friends. we chit-chatted a while then took bus home. today was really a wonderful day. =) thanks everyone for making my day!! LOVE you guys loads!!! im so so so excited about tml!!!!! shopping with shey at town then meeting superd at east coast! ooh cant wait! =) sorry cant upload any photos.. wait till my com's in shape.. i'll attempt to do so again! till then.. blessed weekends! =)

2006-09-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

WOW. one week flies. weeks should grow wings.

today was probably one of the most horrible days of my week. i've never felt so terribly cold, exhausted and migraned in my life. puffy cheeks. sleepy eyes. what have you. i've not cried this badly for such a long time. thank you ethel alene janey darlings for shopping today! it really made my day so much better, i kinda forgot prelims are still on..

im tired. very.

" i need you to carry me through.. "

2006-09-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

thank you darlings for all the well wishes!! today's saturday!! it's SATURDAY. that makes less than two days! gosh. i just realised that it's less than 10 weeks to the END of o levels! the one major exam that everyone has been fearing and slogging our guts out for four years! it's just going to be over like that. haha come to think of it, i bit no point huh?

there's so many things i want to do after Os. cant wait! =) but im so going to miss secondary school.. the secondary school life that we were all woah-ing about in primary 6.. it's going to be over soon.. it's just a matter of weeks! well well i guess it's time to move on...

ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS GUYS! I LOVE YOU ALL. =)

"Everything my heart desires
Lord I want it all to be for You Jesus
Be my magnificent obsession"

2006-09-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

yay! im high! and tired. but still high enough to blog! :) yes yes yes. ahaha i dont know where to start! hmm lets see. if you start finding my post boring already, i'd advise you not click the green 'back' button yet cos the best is always at the bottom! :) but ey at least take time to read the titbits in front lah! lala!

thursday: was rather hand-numbing day. compo-ed for english and chinese! then had bio tutorial. only like 5 of us attended! sole survivors: junyi alwyn yingen and me. half-survivor: amanda ho. yu jie came and sat in a little while then left. it was too rainy a day for teachers day eve. i was starving and couldn't get out of school to get food! in the end walked in the drizzle. thank goodness it was only a DRIZZLE. hmm if you know what i mean. well nothing really much happened...

friday: yes yes big interesting day! reached tamp at 11 am to meet yongde brian malcolm mika janey to get materials for coaches day present! yes and i bought a purple pen!! :) after buying 4 plastic cardboards and glue we went to get mcflurries!!! YUMMY. smuggled the icecreams up 31 and bus-ed down to bedok to meet alene serene roger daniel angus for lunch. blah blah blah... went to alene's house!!! we settled at her 'mini-living room' and started doing random stuff.. claire ethel kev came to join us and oh something really funny happened!!!
malcolm: ethel you cut your hair ah?
ethel: no no no it dropped off.
hahaha! quite duh right the question! and even more funny stuff happened!!
someone observant: kev your socks wear inside out!
*kev quickly yanks out his socks!*

hahaha ok like then we finally started doing the 'cards' for coach val and coach julian! spent time making hearts and stars with straws and ethel made a green prawn which looked like a carrot! later we had praise and worship. while trying to get everyone to settle down kev i think, was saying: ey guys, p&w now, p&w.
malcolm: ey you know pulau ubin has A&W
alene and mika: really?!?! (while amazed at how advanced pulau ubin was...)
malcolm: ya. pulau ubin has air and water.

woah how random was that? hahaha. anyway praise and worship was simply awesome :) after that we had sharing. yes and that was when roger's best enemies were brought in. durians puffs. haha meet the anti-durians! yongde roger mika janey ethel and me. at the mention of the word durian, you'll see daniel's and alene's eyes sparkle! literally! like 'durian' is some magic word. the whole time roger was being bullied by the guys who were chasing him around with durian puffs! the way roger shuns the durians.. he really did look like a rabbit. later we were talking about really wrong stuff.. better not share here. blah blah fast forward.. we completed most of the deco and started cleaning up. after the clean up...
kev: where's my swa zi?
mika: what swa zi?
claire: it's wa zi lah!
kev: really?

oh man! hahaha! socks + wa zi = swa zi???

yay then we started talking lots and lots of photos! (basic photography!)

sexy babes of superd!!! :)

paul twohill impersonate? and her most ardent fan!

alene and me! our very own finger-frame!

i have no idea why brian took this photo

superd! one big family!

numbers.. 1 to 12!! fingers all over the place!

lala that was all for friday!! went simpang bedok for dinner after that then went home..

SATURDAY!!!!

our beloved coach val!!!

our beloved coach julian!!!

ADCY and me!! :)

amanda with coach val's 'card'!

yay!! superd so sexy we look like WHOO!!

claire coach val and mika! um with half a nick!

pink-shirt babes with coach val!

we were.. wall-ed!

the guys with coach julian.. this is the blurer version.. the funnier and sharper ones are with claire and nick!

yay! im finally finished posting all my photos! i just love posting photos! :) there's just so many things that happened today i wont share here.. well next week's the sept hols! blessed holidays everyone! take care!!

2006-08-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

ahh yet another cliche day at school.. but it was quite a test-ful day! got back 3 tests and had amath test. ahh praise Daddy i did ok for my ss and emath tests.. and i passed my chinese test! really really praise Jesus. i was just telling Daddy after that chinese test, a pass would be good enough since i didnt have time to finish a 20 mark question and indeed He is a God of more than enough! i passed i passed!!! haha.

i seriously cant wait cant wait for prelims to end!!! today's officially the last day of lessons! no more lessons till next year! it's the begining of mugging now! woah i really cant say how fast time flies. this year's a year of acceleration, where the hard becomes easy! my Daddy's more than enough for me he makes all things good just for me! =)

during ss caho shey jac and i were talking about entreprenuership! (i cant spell) haha how to get more pocket money! sounds quite fun! good way to get rid of unwanted junk! there's like so much stuff piling up in my room i dont know what to do with it! procrastinating the clear ups till after Os!

this song kept replaying in my head today! (the special item that coach ron did two weeks ago!)

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

LOVE!!! =)
that's the most commonly used 4-letter word! =)
what am i without Daddy's love?
how blessed am i to know how much He loves me! =)
im a happy girl!

blessed week enjoying Daddy's love for you! =) i love you all!

2006-08-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

ooh it's like really late now.. but i snoozed the whole entire afternoon away so im still quite high now. so so many things been happening over the past 7 days im really starting to realise how fast time passes! last week, sadly, was a rather depressing week. chuncks of stuff were thrown at me and i couldnt manage everything well.. thank you everyone for all the encouragements the past week. really really appreciated them alot. i finally got my answers. Jesus is real-ler than my reality. i've always wanted to stay in that lala land where reality's absent.. but thank Daddy i have HIM! my confirmation and my sure foundation. nothing could be sure-rer! =) my english's really broken today haha but whatever. im i happy girl knowing that my Daddy has a good opinion of me! what could be better?

dare on saturday was awesome. it was the first time i met delight, sweet babe from superd! was at dare that i really poured out everyhing i've been keeping to myself for the past week and i was ugly crying all the way.. receiving the reassurance that Jesus is faithful and He'll never leave me alone i felt so much at peace. we had dg and superd was split up.. im under coach julian together with alene mika claire shavonne vikki jack brian josh and i cant remeber who else. coach julian was sharing that Daddy places people in our lives to bless us. i know coach julian is a blessing to superd. although we're split up, im glad superd's still together and as crazy as ever! i really love superd, they've been such a wonderful blessing to me! =) after dare the leaders had appreciation dinner. i think it was really appreciation dinner cos it was unusually quiet for us at dinner without the leaders! we left really early that day.. when i reached home started having giddy spells. my room was spinning and i couldn't really move around so i slept real early that night.

sunday was at rousy's early to do chem, preparing for today's test. my headache was still bugging me and i slept for a while at tuition. rousy said i looked pale. i was napping on the bus to suntec. i seriously cant stand long bus rides. well praise God when i woke up i'd just reached. went to meet tsu ting daniel christon and waited for shavonne and claire to go for lunch. after which shavonne and i went for tuition. tuition was rather slack cos shavonne daryl and i finished oral already so we were just going through plots for compo with charissa. i came up with some silly plot that made myself laugh! went for 4th service with janey alene daniel and roger. service was fantastic. it's really refreshing to know that the king of all kings is for me and has a good opinion of me! dinner was hilarious. had fun laughing about "mind-boggling" stuff and i have arrived at a conclusion! i am not slow! i have the mind of christ okay! =)

was talking to isabel today, asking her to go for dare and ej camp. that was when i realised that choir's training camp falls on the exact same date as ej! and that's the training camp claire was telling me about! oh man. i really want claire and my sis to go. hmrp. ej camp's my first and last camp in dare! i cant wait cant wait! still cant believe i missed adv camp. anyway. tml's prelim bio pract!!! and i realised that this week and next are actually quite slack-ish weeks! um for me lah. haha. next week we only have to attend lessons on monday! tuesday's physics pract (haha what's physics?) wednesday's breaking some world record thing, thurday's compo exam and friday's teacher's day! slack huh!

i have cravings for chocolate!! =) hmm it's seriously late now so blessed sleep everyone! =)

i'm a child of the Lord most high

2006-08-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

oh man let me tell you im so so so happy today!!! (and a little sad) BUT still happy happy and high!! oh man.. tuesdays were never this interesting before!! fun fun! haha.

to begin the day.. i snoozed for a good half an hour when i reached school today. nua. lessons were as usually.. tiring. haha. lit was as usually.. useless.. im serious. math. ah i just cant stand those two moving things. cant they just happily sail home? why do i want to know who observes who from which direction and which angle? haiya. chinese suddenly pop out test.. i think i lost a good 20 marks already. =S

anyway anyway. the half-highlight of the day! oral oral oral oral! woah. everyone like kancheong spider.. haha. reported to hall at 2. they divided the students into 3 groups of 12. and i was 12th from the top! omg lah. i was still being happy i thought i was the first few. never felt so retarded before. ~~waited~~ rotted for a good 2.5 hours before my turn! like caho the first few left at 230! the hall was freezing cold and my darling fingernails turned purple-ish blue! cool huh. haha.

ok like when it finally reached chin meng i started feeling really jittery. due to the air con, i couldnt stop shaking! plus i was being nervous and all.. had to grab my arm to stop it from shaking! i dont know how i managed to actually walk across the hall to the examiners.. anyway. after observing the examiners ( i was starring at them from afar for two whole hrs) they both looked really stone-ish! i fear stone-ish examiners. like it increases tension! esp the malay examiner. she had that "dont-mess-with-me" look on her face. freaky. anyway. when i got there. um i was trying my best to smile! gosh. when i opened my golden mouth to read i couldnt recognise my own voice! i shocked myself. haha. during the conversation the examiners both started laughing at me! even the stoney one! and i didnt even know what i was talking about! i just said every first thing that came to my mind. couldnt remember a single oral technique ms ng taught! well i kinda figured why the examiners laughed.
1. they were really happy that they can go home soon!
2. they laughed for fun.

whatever the case. really really praise Daddy for seeing me through this whole entire scary thing. haha. i actually broke down, eh no. was crying and laughing at the same time. thank goodness it's over.

lala oh thank you yingen dear for taking bus down to marine parade library with me! =) you're so so sweet. =) lalala fastforward... went to marine cove to celebrate mika darling's bdae!! quite a number of people turned up!! lets see.. janey daniel brian nick shavonne mika alene and me! wow. during dinner alene needed to go "toilet" haha! we ran to gelare and got a yummy cheesecake for mika!! then we were ~~singing~~ screaming a bdae song for her! haha. oh oh. photo time!!

LOVES!!! i never knew macs had nice coffee!!

mika(in nic's glasses).. janey(um in her own glasses)

the FBT babes!

see no evil speak no evil hear no evil!!

our beautiful birthday babe!

alene and mika!

shavonne and mika!

claire we miss you so!!

shavonne and me!

lala! that's all the photos i took! the mutated and twin photos are with nick! hahas. i really really had fun today! =) blessed blessed week everyone!!

2006-08-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
But sometimes I wonder what He can do through me
No great sucess to show
No glory on my own
Yet in my weakness He is there to let me know
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect

We can only know
The power that He holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength in us begins
Where ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again
His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He’ll carry us when we can’t carry on
Raised in His power, the weak become strong
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect

2006-08-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

lala trying to squeeze info into my head.. taking a little break! hahas. hmm i wonder what i've missed out, many things i guess. but i know i'll be alright. i don't know sometimes why i make choices i do, but i do know that'll it'll all work out for my own good.. =) so many things happened today. was one eventful and tiring day. thank you Daddy for seeing me through.

two more hours darlings! yay! my daddy's coming home in two hours! im a happy girl. =)) zheng laoshi went for an opp today.. please let her be alright.. although lessons seem slackish without her presence, there's still a something missing. i guess once you've grown used to some things, it's hard to let go! guess that applys to my siblings as well? much as i want them to stop quarreling, it's wierd when they get all snuggly together. haha! well quarreling is part of growing up aye? but i think theirs is a little too much.. come on.. cant one of you just give in? hais.

i realised i was writing all out of point stuff for social studies.. i cant think properly when im being rushed! oh mans. i have a fast brain in jesus name! this brain needs a miracle. haha. ms kartini's huge huge coumtdown timer was really distracting.. imagine if like exam halls had all these big big countdown timers.. haha i wouldn't be concentrating at all then! tml's friday already. 37 days. that's realy fast. realised today, that when i was in sec3, i thought that o levels would never come.. always looked at my seniors and thought, nah, still a long time before i get there. haha so not true! gosh time really passes faster than i thought. cant believe i'll actually be graduating so soonish!

yesterday's health check messed up my hair! hahas. it was just a total waste of time. horrible mr tan was laughing at me for being abnormally yanked out when i was born. HRMP! im normal ok!

what makes me a happy girl? antm's coming back again! hurray hurray! finally i have something nice to watch. *laughs* well well back to bio! all the best for tml's test everyone! =)

oh oh.. sweet sweet song! =))

Faithful Friend-- twila paris/steven curtis chapman
Everyone knows you as a man of honor
I am glad to know you simply as a friend
You've always taken time to be my brother
And I'll be standing by you in the end

I will never put you on a pedastal
I thank the Lord for everything you do
I'll be there to pray for you and for the ones you love
I believe that
He will finish all he started in you.

I wil be an open door that you can count on
Anywhere you are, anywhere you've been
I will be an honest heart you can depend on
I will be a faithful friend

I am one of many whose path has been made clearer
By the light you've carried faithfully as a warrior and a child
God has used you greatly to encourage and inspire
And you've remained a true friend all the while

I will never put you on a pedastal
Cause we both know all the glory is the Lord's
But I'll be there to pray that He will keep you by his grace
And I always will remind you to be seeking His face

Should it ever come your time to mourn
I will weep with
every single time you win
I'm celebrating too

2006-07-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

i just cancelled my post. i dont want to write everything here. haha. i just want to say.. thank you everyone for making my weekend.. i never fail to look forward to weekends.. and i never fail to enjoy my time spent! today's laughing session.. man i really laughed my heart out.. haha i realise im the most high on weekends.. and hurray! monday's a "no school" day! i cant express how happy i am. bet you i'll see tons of school people tml.. must start thinking of a way to camouflage myself already.. aye. who ask church to be so near esplanade?

mr yeow was being annoying that day. i was really really disappointed with myself for not allowing myself to perform at esplanade.. i miss singing so much you know.. but yesterday's praise and worship night made up for it.. oh it was simply awesome. =)

eeks im really migraning now.. vision's spinning and im starting to see two! ooh.. means time to go to bed! blessed sleep everybody!

2006-07-28T09:57:00.000+08:00

bleaugh. today was a bad day. know what. the worse thing is not to be unable to do things. it's to use to be able to do it last time.. but not being able to do it now. chim? anyways. i still have one week. may next week never come.

my daddy's leaving for shanghai in half an hour.. =( horrible horrible machines there why spoil? i don't like daddy to go overseas.. daddy i'll miss you.. the next one week will be LONG. =(

i have one big huge chunck of work to complete.. seeing them makes me drowsy.. help! the day didn't start well.. woke up with bad news on my phone.. i sure pray it'll end well.. im a hungry girl now.. literally ate nothing the whole day.. munch munch time!

"put a song in my mouth..."

2006-07-26T10:13:00.000+08:00

after what happened today.. i really really realised.. treasure all the people around you right now.. even if it's your nagging mummy.. treasure all you loved ones, close friends and precious beloveds.. don't wait for tml! start appreciating them now..

oh one thing i'll never ever be able to appreciate... kinematics! what's which those particles walking round and round then u-turning then walking again? eat too full nothing to do? rahh.. i do NOT like kinematics! boo hoo.

hmm hmm.. im hungry! lala dinner time! :)

2006-07-25T14:07:00.000+08:00

oh finally it's working. watched miss universe few hrs ago.. all i can say, is that they're beautiful. mom was commenting that she likes mexico's gown.. which one's prettier which one's got the figure blah blah blah. during the swimsuit show i saw the ribcage skeletal of one of them! gosh. was thinking how much they must be starving to join this universal competition.. well miss japan a little resembles rousy's niece right?

later while i was showering, a little thought popped in my head.. these many girls 'starve' so hard to hope to get that 80 carat worth crown on their head.. they have to impress (so many) judges, look perfect, walk perfect yadaa yadaa.. a little mistake and they get nothing. doesn't that sound like law? thank God for grace. i'll get my crown when i go meet my Daddy! He loves me just as i am. =)

today's tiring day.. my dearest cosy bed here i come! sleeping is such a luxury... =))

"I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it's true
You're a masterpiece
That all creation quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God..."

2006-07-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

it's 1150pm now! just reached home not long ago.. yawns.. tml still have school! crap. i shall invent a portable bed! rahh.. was telling nick about andy who always shouts "HOH!" into people's ears.. guess what nick said. "when he says that, tell him FAN!" being si-low i took like almost a min to realise that it meant haw fan. so lame! gosh like only nick can think of that!

anyways.. today's service was fantastic.. so so blessed.. =) im a happy girl today.. had nice lunch with kok and little queen bimbo.. and guess what, i got caught in the rain. when i reached home. the sun shone. like really brightly! as if laughing at me for not being smart enough to wait a lil longer at the bus stop. hrmp. anyway.

the super d choristers were talking about last year's syf set piece. "saan falling eeen the west, the eevening star must shaine. birds are SAI-lent in deeair, in deeair nest!.." goshes. now i realised how much i miss singing! there're feelings built for singing you know.. i miss becky! oh yes i saw modissa today.. sentimental stuff started coming back. wells, 4 years past so fast you know..

alright.. it's past 12 alr.. happy birthday school tml? stoning time.. *yawns*

2006-07-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

whoa. today was one eventful day! =) i did pe despite the injury and if mum finds out im sure to get a lecture.. got back bio test and praise Daddy i did quite well! =) after school went to meet alene and daniel for lunch.. after which went to catch a movie.. alene daniel roger nick char and me. =) im sorry but im kinda clueless about pirates.. thanks alene dear for so patiently explaining portions i didnt understand! sho sweet. =) one thing good about these movies is that the ending is not predictable! unlike clique shows..

well then after which alene and i chiong-ed like two siao char bors down to B1 to buy cake for daniel.. well then we had tongue sticking session and started behaving all spastic.. really enjoyed myself.. loads. :)

oh dad bought a hard drive for me! :)) now i can store lots and lots of songs and photos without worrying of lack of space! hurray! :) yay im a happy girl. hmmms. kinda sleepy alr after such a long day.. blessed remaining of the week! :)

2006-07-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

look what i found!!! 8days mag presents... (drumroll)

paul um two hills

cutie dory fish!

now spot the difference, name the similarity!! quick quick!
if you're slow.. (hee)
difference: dory is a few million times cuter than that hill
similiarity: hilly is trying to pose as dory!

well if you cant see, i'll help you!

gosh. this is pure impersonation of dory! how can!?!? im so gna sue him.. hee hee. (~~evil~~ innnocent smile.) no offence to all twohill fans...

lala. today was a migrane-ish day.. weather's so hot hot hot!! yes and rachel declared me smarter than jackie! yay yay yay! 30 min to rachel's bdae! =)

2006-07-17T09:57:00.000+08:00

tick tock! heh random. oh mans i never laughed so much this whole week.. spending my weekend with glorious people is really really joyous! esp with 'cold' people like alene daniel and nick.. how to not laugh? haha. no mind king and his understudy.. LOL! dare was kinda quiet.. cos amanda wasn't there at dare..(ooh it rhymes!) nevertheless.. marika and alene were high-ing over the 'take it all' actions! =p during dare pastor gave an altar call for those struggling with their studies. i badly wanted to go up, but my feet just wouldn't move and my stomach was feeling so queasy. seeing all those getting slain by Daddy's presence and giving hugs to alene and mika, it suddenly dawned upon me how much my Daddy loves me and wants nothing but the best for me.. then i started to cry. His presence was so strong i finally understood what claire said during sharing last dare dinner. you dont have to have hands laid on you to receive your annointing.

both messages yesterday and today were powerful. my Daddy showers constantly blessings on me beacuse im righteous in Christ! i dont have to work for my blessings. beacuse He is with me, i have favour! =) the last week was so tiring that i kept wanting to give up. really, faith comes by hearing the word. i never really understood what that meant. now i do. no condemnation for every decision i make! put Christ in the center of my life.. talk to Him whenever troubles come my way! He'll never fail me. ever. that's like the best assurance! =)

lala now's dinner time! =) oh blended d.o.ms and chicken based! sick. haha.

blessed week beloveds! =))

"o Lord you search me
you know my ways
even when i fail you
i know you love me
i know you love me.."

2006-07-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

ooh! yesterday almost kena bang down by car. almost fainted while walking down the hill. it took me forever to reach the mrt station. walk walk walk like not moving at all like that. i felt heavy and light at the same time. my shoulders were breaking under the weight of my bag. what a day.

anyway. this is so cute lah! never noticed before..

Olny srmat poelpe can raed tihs. cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

2006-07-12T14:19:00.000+08:00

i just reached home not long ago. hospital trip was crap. well i got to "skip" school for one day though.. blogging just now.. visited someone's that said something like what, love must come with hurt.. is that right? well at least i know my Daddy showers me with unconditional love.. if not even a single soul on earth accepts me, i know He still loves me. what a wonderful father i have. =) yesterday alene was sharing with me about some stuff a little of which spoke to the inner bits of my heart. it was kinda a new revelation.. going to church is all about God's grace and Jesus, how much He loves us. that's everything right? yes it is. =)

world cup.. well i guess i'll never be able to understand soccer ever. haa. it just doesnt speak my language. well well. my migrane is catching up on me! time to take a nap..

2006-07-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my oh my! guess what. im actually going to wake up at 3am later to watch the last hour of world cup! partly to join in the atmosphere, partly to see if my dad and mom won any of their bets. oh my can you believe it? im going to sacrifice my precious 1 hour of sleep to watch a few dozen people chase after a silly ball! oh my oh my. repeat it: OH MY! haha im sorry. it's just pure madness after stuffing all dydx-es into my brain. seriously. i dont get world cup. at all. i'll probly need my sis to explain the game to me later! oh yes she's waking up too. wow. not bad for my nerdy sis eh? i have one wierd family. my dad and sis support italy.. my mom and brother support france.. how wierder can things get? HAH.

i've accepted a few new truths recently. hmm. though still can really really believe it's happening. well i guess reality's still reality! oh yes. the reality. VS is starting school at 930 am tml lah because of the world cup! how cool is that? now shout it out! NOT FAIR! haha. seriously. i think we should have a public holiday tml in celebration of the closure of world cup or something. the poll seriously earns alot alot of money every 4 years! blah blah blah. im just crapping non stop here waiting for my hair to dry so i can go sleep. oh well i have nothing to crap about anymore. how sad. lets all cry. i think i should go sleep. im starting to talk rubbish already. goodnight darlings! seeya all at world cup later! =S

2006-07-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

im home!! yay! it's not even 130 yet! that's early.. oh the joy.. haha. gosh why is it so hot? i should shun bian bring a frying pan next time.

despite being cooked.. my little brain's not fried yet.. met someone unexpected on the way home.. reaching my home saw primary school kiddos geting off the school bus.. makes me miss my taking-school-bus days. i wonder how i felt when i turned 13. i wonder how it'll feel like to grow up. hmm. i dont want to grow up. oh man. what rubbish.

im hot and say it with me. IM HOT.

2006-07-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

hmm. i wonder why so things happen the way they do. and how i can be so naive to not believe the way i thought it was. well to think and believe are actually two different things you know. well i just realised. sorry lah people slow mah. i realised i missed out alot of things.. some on purpose, some not. oh man oh man oh man. my life's up and down now. though i like siao char bor liddat... nvm.

thank goodness my Daddy's always the same! if not i really dont know where to get my strength from.

"yesterday today forever you're the same
jesus your love will never ever change
you are here with me watching over me
day after day i'll walk in all your ways"

2006-07-05T11:10:00.000+08:00

everyone's down with the flu/fever bug! that means stuffing many big pills down you throat and drinking so much water until you wna puke. argh. hates medicine.

nevertheless.. knowing how much my big Daddy loves me surpasses all those sickness already. He is greater than my problems and He'll not want me going through all these! besides, He paid for my diseases and pains at the cross!

prelims are in like what 2 months? i know He is my victory! =)

"at the cross i bow my knee
where your blood was shed for me
there's no greater love than this
you have overcomed the grave
your glory fills the highest place
what can seperate me now"

2006-07-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

small short post before i go teeorhorh. i was so so blessed by pastor lian's message today. =) fellowship at dinner was great too! i never knew brian liked to play with food. anyway. first service tml! super shag now.. time is 11:43pm! yawn.

2006-06-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

im seeing two everywhere now. couldn't eat much of dinner cos i just didnt have appetite. the panadol's not helping. argh. why suddenly migrane until like that.. feeling very horrible. =(

2006-06-26T06:35:00.000+08:00

gosh. it's sunday. today's message really really spoke to me! "dont be discouraged!!!" =)

i can think of reasons why school should not open tml. (or at least not until i say so)
1. i cant find my homework.
2. im in no condition for school now (you'll understand tml)
3. im still in holiday mood!
4. i dun wna hear all those teachers go "you only have 3 months left blah blah blah..."
5. i dun wna hear the baboon go "you're the top 15%.." (or was it 10%?)
6. i just dun want
7. i still want my 10 hours of sleep every night.
8. cos i feel disappointed
9. ... the list goes on. i can crap out another few million reasons. but i can't be bothered. cos im still feeling pek chek. no, im not pek chek. im highly, super, uber pek chek. yingen, i wasn't overseas. i was supposed to be at ubin for camp last week. that's still singapore right? anyway. due to some unforseen circumstances.. hai. why do these things happen to me? boo. never ever felt so disappointed in my whole entire life before. haiya. i cant turn back time can i? i wish i could though.

i've lots of explaining to do tml.. and lotsa of stuff to settle also. brain no space alrealy lah.

2006-06-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

please dont force me to a corner.. i may drown in my own tears.

2006-06-15T04:55:00.000+08:00

hmm hmm procrastinating again! bah. sometimes i can be horribly lazy..

last few weeks and weekends were really eventful.. so many many stuff happening! firstly let me express my greatest disappointment to the two lecturers of the two seminars. im sorry but i literally learnt nothing. im super pek chek and highly disappointed. i think tszman is super smart. haha. i wont tell you why! it's a secret. half my monday was wasted train-hoping and being annoyed at the seminar.. went to meet alene and mika for lunch after their x-men movie.. pasta mania! yummy. now i finally realised why i've been so horribly broke. went rousy's after that didnt really do much cos i was kinda tired. =(

tuesday was another morning wasted.. lunched and went rousy's once again. took a taxi home cos my shoes betrayed me. i sure know how to spend money eh. i want to go israel this year after my o levels! want want want! but as you can tell im in financial difficulty.. shopping may have to be cut down, and i may need to go look for a holiday job. maybe i should set up a 'save alena' fund. what crap.

did some talking with some people and alot of thinking the past few days.. and i really cannot understand certain things. i think i think too much. but sometimes i can sort of read people's minds by their expressions. over-sensitivity? i dunno. sometimes people dont mean what they say. why like that? if you dont mean it.. what for say? for fun? it's not fun playing with other people's feelings.

just now at home got short circuit. scare my aunty until she started screaming. thank God nothing serious happened.
cant wait for tml! =)

"sometimes things are not what you think it is.. sometimes it's not that simple.."

2006-06-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

for today.. i feel like cinderella.. my slippers died on me! rubbish shoes.. i liked them leh! it's not even a month old lah! walk to the mrt then the left shoe gave way.. walk to tuition the right shoe sucide. someone sponsor me new slippers please?

2006-06-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

what's with humans sometimes? when good intentions turn sour and hurt people. when simple thoughts of care and little actions of kindness incure jealousy. when things from the heart with no ill intentions whatsoever get only false accusations and lies.

what is this world turning into? it's not just about me myself and i you know? do appreciate the efforts and people who are just there.. before you lose them... dont take things for granted as if the whole world is indebted to you. you're not the only living soul in this earth ya?

the truth didnt really shock me. i kinda expected it somehow... but to think is one and reality another.. sometimes the simplest thoughts mean the most. but why do people always add ill intention to simple acts? why complicate matters that are so simple? lousy people.

sometimes living in a house that has people quarrelling every single day can be really depressing. peace and quiet please? every single night without fail. shout scream cry. no sense of consideration at all. haven't you all got a heart? think it's really fun? please go find somewhere else to do your quarrels..

it was kinda pek cheking and disappointing today's seminar.. i expected much more substance. waste money only. to the person siting beside me today. if you're so not interested.. turn up for what? listen to your silly noisy music the whole way. i seriously dont see your purpose of turning up. and to the other person who let out the horrible vulgar word.. please please be more cultivated? what so great about that vulgar word? a way to show that you're grown up? i dun think so.

"God gave you two ears and one mouth. listen more and talk less please."

2006-06-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

super long and tiring day...rotting at my cousie's house.. waiting for my dad and uncle to finish watching their world cup before going home. tml first service.. yawn.. need to wake up early..

today's group snuggle was fun.. im in alpha group 1.. ANKITA! lalala! i think our flag is beautiful.. thought i dun really know anyone there.. only valentia.. who wasn't here today.. coach elizabeth was really fun and cute! =) mika dear.. dun be sad bout it ya.. Daddy will make a way for everything! =) besides you have janey valencia ethel and me as your darling roomatees! lala!

after the briefing and snuggle.. amanda alene mika janey and i went walk walk around at marina square.. then janey mika and i went LJ to makan. then after that walk around and bought gummy from minitoons..

sometimes worldly stress and others comments can kill. thank God for grace.. really really saved my life. it's so so much easier living knowing that God values the lost the last and the least! haha there's hope for me! thank you dora for sharing so much with me on friday! thank you darling! =)

tml's english lesson would be conducted by charissa instead of lydia.. going for first tml!! know mika's blog was so detailed on the wednesday's outing? her memory was like wow! haha.
rest well everyone!

2006-06-10T01:57:00.000+08:00

lala! it's kinda late again.. but i just finished with the photos on super d blog so now's my blog's turn! if mummy ever finds out she'll chop me.. anyway.. photos in the toilet the last time! and photos shopping with dora, janey and mika today! i had so much fun guys! thanks for everything! esp at sakae! hahaha!

mika janey valentia ethel and me!=)

mika janey dora and me! i love you babes! =)
know this machines the print is so shing shing! haha. we all look so pretty in all the photos! lala!

hmm it's really really late.. bed time now! night night!

2006-06-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

yay! blogger is finally working!!! click so many times until my fingers cramp.. im emotional today so i shall rubbish about emotional stuff. i wanna thank people i wanna apologise to people.. i know it's kinda late.. but i don't care..

hmm. now where should i start. i just actually wanna thank all those sweet people who stand by me and hear all my nonsense and my crap, my mood swings and my highs and lows, ups and downs. probably mention some names.. if i dont mention yours.. im sorry!

2k04: you guys are one great bunch! best attendance! =) we rock yeah! jess my darling.. the sweetie pie.. jiahui my korkor.. we're supposed to come back together i didnt forget! justyne pokk.. thanks for the grade 8 notes for my long time ago exam! jinzhi the best/most organised pw group leader! huiling my ahgong chiusuen my ahma! jiayu mama! i love everyone single one of you!

muacks 3c/4c06: all the best for o levels guys! the most rahhrahh class for bonding camp! i want a rebonding! haha. shihui my siting beside mate! carrie my brother bear! jackie my bimbo! pearlie the chaota! yingen the snow white! thank you yingen for being so encouraging with all your tags and stuff! and thank you for my famous nickname! lol. thank you jiahui for asking me if im ok that day after oral.. =) huiyi my mummy! and all those guys siting around with all your lame jokes and drama everyday!

sexylucas: all the best for o levels too guys! though i dont really know how are all of you now.. i wish all of you the best.. all of you are so smart.. will be able to do well im sure! thank you for all the joy and laughter you guys brought.. i love you all! =)

LE dears: i miss all of you! jacq mummy, vinnie jie, tiffy mei, sheryl mei, cordy, althea, eunice, jul, elina and all the ushers! take care! =)

super-D: my dearest hunks and babes! you guys have been a great blessing to me! thought i only joined this year.. all you love and warmth has really shown me that Daddy has blessed me so so much! with all of you! especially yesterday's outing! i had loads of fun! i've seen Daddy through all of you and have really been so encouraged by all you testimonies! alene my dear.. thank you so much for encouraging me when i needed someone to pour out my troubles to.. and for constantly reminding me how good Daddy is. janey: thank you so much for entertaining me when im bored! and for listening to all my complains and worries.. and encouraging me! nick: thank you for being the very first friendly guy i met in new creation! for all the self-entertainment and jokes! =) mika: for all those big hugs and chit chatting.. and for yesterday's blading! you're the pro! shavonne: for all the poke pokes on my tummy everytime you see me! thank you everyone who has made a difference in my life! all the green tea.. purple pens and the pretty photos! i love you all!

laoda and jiaxin.. thank you for always chatting with me and coming up with the lame-est stuff! =)
evelyn 'daddy'! a.k.a zhuzhu? haha! big hug!

"count your blessings!" =) i've just counted mine! you're all my blessings!